I will  no longer be posting here. My new blog isn’t as pretty as this one because I had my webmaster’s help with this one. If you know anything about wordpress or helping spruce up my new blog, let me know. I also haven’t gotten the energy to post in the new one but because of the death of my grandmother, I will be posting soon.

This is my new blog. Bookmark it because this blog has come to an end. Love you all.

xoxo, Sierra

So here I am trying to think of the right words to say to explain everything that has been going on in my life. This blog could turn into 4-5hrs of writing for me because I love to write but I won’t bore you with ALL of the details. I know I have a lot of fans that sincerely care about (especially from seeing the response of emails that I have and continue to receive) so I know you guys would love to hear about everything but like the one comment that was left on my last post, me being emotional and talking about personal information, “is hard to jerk off to.”

Okay, so where do I begin? I really have no idea; I’m just going to write this as things come to mind so I’m sorry if it’s jumbled and doesn’t make a whole lot of sense. The truth is, I’m still confused and frustrated with the way things have been so I haven’t even made sense of it all.

I think I want to start with the drug rumor. If you follow me on twitter, you know that I’ve turned into a little raver and have been to 4 raves since late April. I want to make it clear that I am NOT a drug addict. Taking E at raves is a fun thing that I like to do but it’s more of a social thing. It of course is not good for you and it does take me on an emotional roller coaster but I’m not out of control and I’m not doing it constantly. Most people like to go out on a Friday night and hit up a bar or club to get shitty drunk and let loose but instead of that, I choose to go to a rave on a Saturday night, maybe once a month. Since I am an emotional person, it tends to fuck with me a bit but I have it under control. I never let it affect my work or even become an addiction. I know myself better than anyone so if you were/are concerned, don’t be. I actually feel that it’s helped sort out a lot of things that I’ve been struggling with.

On that note, why have I been MIA? There’s several reasons but the main reason has been my thoughts about my future. Although I sincerely love performing in the adult industry, it’s not something I want to do for the rest of my life obviously. I’ve only been in the business for a year and a half now but I feel like it’s coming to an end. I’m still performing as of right now but because the business is really slow, I’ve had a lot of time to think about things. Basically, I’ve been trying to work on myself and become a better person. I have a lot of personal issues that I need to deal with such as self confidence and independence and being in the adult industry is NOT helping me. One of the reasons I got into the industry was to get ahead financially, but because of several bumps in the road that I have encountered, it’s been hard to make one step forward when life keeps making you take 10 steps back. I’m extremely passionate about going to school and I’ve recently decided that I want to do something in the nursing field. I’m working on making my hopes and dreams become a reality but it’s going to take time. For now I’m going to take work and still shoot until I can completely walk away. I don’t have much support in my life so everything is extremely scary when you’re all alone. This is something that I’m working hard on within myself and I know it’s only going to make me stronger.

Someone had mentioned something recently about Cassandra Calogera retiring and thinks I’m retiring as well because of her. That’s incorrect. It is true that she retired and is completely out of the business but her decisions and choices in life do not reflect on mine. It just happens that we’re on the same page but she has family and friends that she can turn to for help. Unfortunately, we have to part ways for awhile because she feels that moving back to Connecticut to be with her family is the best decision for her. I support her 100% but since she’s moving out, that puts me in a difficult position because my dreams of going to school have to be put on hold since now I have to pay for her half of the rent as well. Like I said, every time I try to get ahead, there’s always something that makes me fall back. I’m going to try and find another roommate but it’s going to be hard because I won’t let just anyone move in that I don’t know and trust. I’m not sure how that’s going to work out but I’m going to deal with it as it comes and hope for the best. With everything that has been going on, her moving out was just icing on the cake. I just lost the only friend I had out here in LA, who isn’t stressed about it like I am.

Now the MAIN reason I have not been around is because of my website. If you joined at any point but had to cancel for whatever reason, thank you for putting your hard earned money into my site and being so supportive. If you joined my site and are still a member as of right now, you’re awesome for staying as long as you did and I also want to thank you for being a member. If you never became a member for whatever reason, no worries. I still love you guys just the same. Before I get in deep, I want to thank every one of you that has supported me since day one till now and anytime in between. I can’t even come up with words right now to show my appreciation but please believe that I truly mean what I say. I appreciate anything and everything that you have given.

Okay so my website: what’s going on?? I won’t go into specifics because even though those that are involved have already talked some real heavy and hurtful shit behind my back (that they don’t know that I know about) and probably still are, I will not trash talk them by name. All that I will say that is pretty self explanatory is that I got fucked over.

There’s a lot that goes into having a website, too much to even list but because I’m a nice person and tend to trust people when I shouldn’t (story of my life), I got used and spit out before I could even realize it and then it was too late. I have received NO money (other than a bill or 2 paid for) from my site. Because of that, I chose to NOT provide any more content to www.sierraskyelive.com. If you noticed, it hasn’t been updated in about 2 months now, I never sign on, I never webcam and that is because I refuse to put my heart and soul into something like I did for over a year, and then not get compensated.

That’s pretty much all I will say. I have been honest since day 1 with my fans and you guys have appreciated it, I won’t stop now. I thought long and hard about if I should talk about what has been going on but YOU deserve to know since YOU guys are the ones that are putting your hard earned money into my site. Please know that this was not a scam of any sort but just poor judgment on my part. I thought having this site would open doors for me but instead it made my life way more complicated then it needed to be.

Will I have another site? Who knows but it’s not looking likely. I can’t go through something like this again. It has killed my spirit and now sometimes, I wish Sierra Skye was never created. I feel like I’ve failed myself as well you guys, my loyal fans. I’m so sorry for having it end like this. I really had hoped my site would have taken off, instead of this.

I’m not going to tell you guys what to do but I am no longer a part of www.sierraskyelive.com, so if you’re a member right now, if you’d like to stay and re-watch the content that is on there, over and over, feel free but it will not be updated again with new content. If it IS updated then it is NOT by me.

I will continue to be a part of twitter and other social networking sites. I still want to keep in touch with my fans and I hope you guys forgive me. I love you all dearly and I wish I would just wake up from this nightmare.

Oh and make sure you have an alternate way of getting a hold of me, whether it be email or twitter because I will be creating another blog because this one will probably be shut down at some point. If you’d like to keep in touch with me and what I’m up to, hit me up and I’ll let you know where you can find my new blog.

I hope this entry answered some questions but if you still have more, feel free to ask. Love you guys.

xoxo

It’s been a LONG ass time since I did one of these and I was looking through pics and figured I’d share this one with you. You’d expect a pic of my huge tits but this pic does my ass justice and since my ass doesn’t get enough attention, here you go. Who doesn’t love a big ass?!

Hope everyone’s having a good weekend! xoxo

I miss you guys. I’m working on the *it* blog that explains as much as I can but it’s going to be a long one so it’s taking awhile. I hope everyone is doing well and having a great summer. I’m doing better and I’ll explain it all soon. xoxo

My weekend was amazing at EDC and I can’t believe it’s already over. I went so hard, got extremely fucked up because I’ve been going through some REAL heavy personal and business shit, I needed the escape. Unfortunately, there are consequences when you go hard so my comedown was even harder; I was a nasty mess.

My life is pretty much falling apart but because it’s going to take me an extremely long time to explain everything, I just wanted to give you guys a heads up that I’m alive and I’m going to sit down with everyone (metaphorically speaking) and explain what’s happening in my life, since I’ve always kept it real with you guys. I just want you all to know that I love you all sincerely and I hope you guys stick with me through these very, very hard times of mine.

I’ve got to run now but I’ll be back on later today hopefully if not tomorrow to explain everything. This might sound corny but please keep me in your thoughts and prayers because I need all the support I can get right now.

xoxo,

Sierra

PS- if you would like to talk to me personally about any of this matter now or later on, please feel free to email me at sierraskyelive at gmail.com. I would love to hear from all of you.

I was hoping to write a positive and upbeat blog since my last few have been a bit depressing but I feel like I have this freaking black cloud over my head. I wanted to vent and write about Ami yesterday but I was too much in shock and then just too upset in general.

Ami Jordan was one of the first girls in porn that I met and became close with. Back when I first came out to California to start doing porn, I was with Type 9 Models and when I came out here for weeks at a time, I would stay in a model house. I’m not going to lie and say it was a fantastic situation but I made due the best that I could. I was coming out to a state where I knew no one and I had to live with anywhere from 3 to 8 girls at a time in a 4 bedroom house. There was usually 2 girls to a room and you flew in and had no idea who you’d be rooming with. It was awkward at first but I kind of got used to it. The fact that we had no transportation and were kind of located in the ghetto, didn’t make it much better either.

On my first trip out here to Cali, I met Ami. Ami was from Tennessee and had this cute southern accent. She had bright blonde hair and was super sweet. She was a natural beauty and we got along right away. After getting to know her quite well (we always had tons of time to kill so we talked about pretty much everything) I found out that she had a hard life and seemed to always have things never going her way. I also found out that she had a problem with some substances and my heart went out to her. She was such a sweetheart but seemed to always be struggling in one situation or another. As much as I wanted to help, it wasn’t any of my business so I just tried to give my advice and leave it at that.

Once we got to know each other a little better, we started making more friends and going out to all of the porn parties with other girls in the model house. At that time we were all getting along great and having an awesome time. After a few trips out to Cali, I stopped seeing her. We would keep in contact here and there via text but other then that I would just hear how she was doing and what she was up to from other people in the industry. I really liked Ami so I was sad that we never came out to work at the same time anymore.

About 6 months ago was the last time I heard about her. I didn’t hear good things because I was told that she had gotten into some more trouble at home and might be taking a break from the business. I remember hitting her up in a text but never got a response. I had figured she got a new number or something and hopefully I would run into her at some point. Then yesterday Cassandra gets a text from a friend in the industry saying, ‘it’s so sad about Ami Jordan.’ Cass had never met her and was just reading the text to me and when she said Ami’s name, my mouth dropped. I was scared to ask what was wrong with Ami but the sickening feeling in my stomach already told me.

As far as I  know, it’s uncertain as to what caused her death. Since I  know her and know the things she has encountered I’m pretty sure I know how she passed away. Porn really fucks with girls in general but it’s so sad to know that she was only 19 years old. She was just a baby and now she’s gone.

I can’t help but think back to so many good times that I had only a year ago with Ami and all of the girls at the Type 9 model house. I can’t believe she’s gone and I wish we would have kept in contact more and I could have done or helped prevent this. I know I probably couldn’t have but death really fucks me and for whatever reason, I feel helpless.

I was going to post pictures of Ami because I used to have a bunch of us, but I can’t seem to find them now I could search her online but I’m sorry, the last thing I want to see is nude photos of her. I knew her beyond Ami and I don’t want to remember her as Ami Jordan. Life really is too short

Sorry guys, I just needed to get this off of my chest. I promise more positive blogs coming soon. I’m feeling more upbeat lately (other then this tragedy) so I’m going to get back to posting fun pics and blogs every day Love you all.

Okay so the real Sierra is back to normal (at least for right now) and my hormones are driving me crazy! Since I can’t keep the dirty thoughts out of my mind, I want to know what the FIRST thing you would do to ME if YOU were here with me right now. Remember, I’m a passionate girl so the more passionate the better. You gotta get me begging for your cock!

It might seem random and kind of corny of me to post lyrics of a song on my blog. However, it’s SO hard for me to put  into words the shit that goes on in my head. I’m here hanging out with Cassandra listening to some music and this new Eminem song made me melt and totally explains so much right now so I’d figure I’d share. My blog is turning out to be more of a diary then a blog so if you like it cool, if not, sorry.

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there’s a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can’t breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It’s like I’m in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It’s like I’m huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I’m leaving you
No you ain’t
Come back
We’re running right back
Here we go again
It’s so insane
Cause when it’s going good
It’s going great
I’m Superman
With the wind in his bag
She’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad
It’s awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who’s that dude
I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her
I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you’re with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit ‘em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get ‘em
Now you’re getting fucking sick
Of looking at ‘em
You swore you’ve never hit ‘em
Never do nothing to hurt ‘em
Now you’re in each other’s face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit ‘em
You push
Pull each other’s hair
Scratch, claw, bit ‘em
Throw ‘em down
Pin ‘em
So lost in the moments
When you’re in ‘em
It’s the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it’s best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It’s a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin’ over
But you promised her
Next time you’ll show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn’t mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper’s just as bad
As mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love
You’re just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn’t you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed
I’ll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I’mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that’s alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that’s alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Eminem feat Rihanna “Love The Way You Lie”

This is from my newest Naught America scene that I thought I did great in but apparently a lot of people thought differently. And this is why people wonder why I have such bad self esteem. I fucking hate myself right now and I would really like to quit porn. People are cruel and I can’t take it anymore. It’s too overwhelming. Thank you assholes.

Where do I begin? I feel like I’m always talking about my Kink shoots lately. Every time I go, I think, ‘how bad could it possibly be this time?’ and then I’m shown how crazy intense they can be.

Monday Cassandra and I hopped onto a plane and went to Kink together. We were going to be shooting for www.whippedass.com. Kink booked Cassandra and I together because last time I went to shoot for that site was when I was paired up with Jayme Langford and the shoot was a disaster and had gotten canceled. I had told them about Cassandra when I was there before and said that she would be a great replacement and they’d get a great scene out of us. I always enjoy going with her because it’s nice flying there with someone and having someone to talk to and hang out with.

Prior to the whippedass.com shoot, I had no idea what the scenario was going to be until I was in the makeup chair and I found out that we were re-doing the exact scene that had gotten canceled a couple weeks back. I liked the scenario but my agent hadn’t told me that I was definitely going to be doing gg anal so I didn’t prepare for it. Isis Love comes up to me and talks about the shoot and mentions the anal part and I freaked for a minute because I was hoping they weren’t going to make me do it.  If I would have know that we were re-doing the exact scene then I would have prepared for the anal but it was too late at that point. It turned out to not be a big deal and they just switched some things around to0 make it work. Since we were re-doing the scene, that meant that we got to wear the french maid latex again which I was excited about! I actually wound up wearing an outfit that wasn’t the exact outfit that I had wore before but it was latex and I loved it.

The site whippedass.com is a girl/girl site that has a lot of (no surprise) ass whipping and smacking. The first scene we come in to meet Isis because she’s looking to hire a new assistant so Cassandra and I were applying for the job. The catch is that Isis is crazy and wants to make us her little play toys so she has us put on our “uniforms” that are the latex outfits. After we get our outfits on she puts gags in our mouths that have dusters on the end of them and makes us start cleaning her house. While we’re cleaning she’s flogging us, slapping our asses like crazy and just torturing us altogether.

The first scene leads into the second scene where we’re on a couch tied to the railing of the stairs that’s behind us. Our hands are tied to our ankles, and our ankles are tied behind our heads to the stairs. On top of that, my left foot and wrist and Cassandra’s right foot and wrist are all tied together. We’re on our backs and from being tied up, our pussies are wide open and exposed. It took a long time to get all tied together so before we even started, I was losing feeling in my hands and feet. The second scene was really hard core for me because Isis used a cane on us to whip us and it hurts like HELL!! She kept slapping our inner thighs and the bottoms of our feet and hurt even worse because my feet were asleep so her hitting them, brought them back to life and intensified the pain. Isis also put metal nipple clamps on us and it felt like my nipples were going to fall off. My nipples are normally extremely sensitive so I was screaming my lungs out when she put them on. I think she was feeling nice that day because she didn’t keep them on for long luckily. I was seriously ready to tap out because of the clamps. I never want them to be used on me again!

I was so relieved when the second scene was over but that still meant that we had 2 more to go. The third scene was crazier then the second of course. Cassandra was tied to the foot of the bed with her arms tied out like she was on a cross, her head down on the bed and her legs tied with a leg bar. I had my arms and hands tied behind my back with a dildo gag attached to my face. I had to fuck Cassandra from behind with the dildo attached to my face and then make her suck on it while Isis was whipping and flogging our asses over and over. It was hard for me because I had to climb onto the bed at one point but it was SO hard to do with arms tied behind my back. You don’t realize how much you need your arms until they’re tied up and you can barely do anything.

Finally it was the fourth scene. I was now tied to the head of the bed with my arms tied back behind the railing  so that the head of the bed was DIGGING into my back. It killed as soon as I was tied so I just had to put myself into another place. I was sitting on my knees and Isis had Cassandra tied up with her arms and hands behind her back and she forced her to slide under my pussy and eat me out as she flogged us. Isis also used the hitachi on us numerous times and I came like crazy. Cumming as much as I did pretty much makes it worth all the pain that you have to go through.

I’d have to say that the re-do of the shoot was way better then the original would have been. I had a lot of fun but was definitely exhausted by the end of the day. I had to stay the night at the Armory because I was booked for another scene the next day. I was sad that Cassandra wasn’t staying with me because I was super bored after she left. I went into the green room to eat dinner and wound up falling asleep on the couch as I watched Intervention. I didn’t want to pass out there so at 730pm, I went to my room and closed my eyes for the night. I honestly didn’t think I was going to sleep until 9am the next morning but my room was super dark and quiet and my bed was so freaking comfortable that I couldn’t help but sleep for 14 hours.

The next morning, I waited for the makeup artist to get in before hopping in the makeup chair and finding out what my scene for www.sexandsubmission.com was going to entail. I was working with Mark Davis who I’d never worked with before and I got to wear latex again. The scenario was that I was showing up for my breast reduction surgery and Mark Davis was my doctor. He didn’t want me to get a reduction and he was a pervy doctor so he wanted to show me some pleasure pain before doing my surgery. It was kind of corny but it worked since I have huge tits.

The first scene was Mark walking me down the hall to the doctor’s room. He hands me a gown and tells me to put it on for the examination. I lay down and he comes back to ask me some questions and then he has me take the gown off so he can examine my body. After he examines my body, he has me bend over and he ties my hands up with rope, starts flogging me to take away the pain from my back. I question his actions and then he takes control and tells me that he has a few procedures that can help with my back pain.  He also has me suck his cock before we end and go into the second scene.

The second scene I’m tied down to a table that has the stirrups, like when you go to the gynecologist. I was strapped down so I couldn’t move and then a ball gag was placed into my mouth so the “other patients” couldn’t hear me scream. Mark uses breast suction pumps on my tits which was a very crazy feeling, the zapper which KILLED for some reason this time and used the hitachi until I came and while he was fucking me. He fucks me for awhile while he’s slapping me all over and then it ends for the second scene.

The third scene I’m tied up in a ton of rope on a hospital bed in doggy position. Mark basically just fucks me in this scene along with some bj action as well. The whole time he’s fucking me he is slapping my ass over and over in the same place and it freaking killed! I was screaming my ass off and was in tears because it hurt so much. I cry a lot in my kink scenes but it’s because it’s how I deal with pain. I can’t help it, as soon as something hurt, tears just start building up in my eyes.  When I start to cry, Mark always addresses it and makes sure that I want to continue.  I always do so he fucks me some more to end the scene.

The last and final scene was my favorite because I finally got to put on my latex nurse outfit. I was kind of bummed that I didn’t get to wear it longer because I only wore it for about 15min in the last scene. The reason I put the outfit on was because he’s had his fun with me but then he wanted to make me his sex slave and told me that I wasn’t going to get my surgery after all. I start off with this contraption that looked freaking crazy. It’s made out of metal and it went around my head and I had to hold my wrists up because it went around my wrists as well. It was really awkward so I had to blow Mark and get fucked in the annoying contraption. The last scene seemed the shortest because Mark was feeling really ill so we made sure we got through it quickly. Mark came on my face and in my mouth and ordered me to swallow. I normally don’t swallow on film but he ordered me to do it and I didn’t have time to say no.

I think both scenes were hot but they really wore me out. I have bruises all over my body right now and yesterday I had to take a low key day and just stay home and relax and recuperate from it all. I feel like I only shoot for Kink and work on my site lately, which is fine by me. I wonder when the next time they’ll be having me back. I can’t wait