If I came to YOU and asked what you would like in a porn site, what features would be the most important to you? Would it be that the porn girl was on webcam every day? Daily updates? What would you want to add to the site that would keep you coming back? What kind of scenes would you like to see? What would you like the site to look like?

And most importantly what DON’T you like about porn sites?!

If you’re a big fan of me I would love to hear your feedback, thoughts and ideas. I’m all about pleasing my fan base so while I was brainstorming, I figured what would be better then asking YOU the fans?! You don’t have to answer every question but the more ideas and thoughts you can give me, the better. I know what I like to see and what I want to do, but I want to know your thoughts as well. At the end of the day, I want you to love cumming to my site (in more ways then one ) and can’t help but cum back for more.

If you do leave your feedback, thank you for doing so. I really, really appreciate it. Love you guys! <3

Today is my 24th birthday! I feel so freaking old! I know I’m NOT old but I feel like I am. I still feel like I’m 16 and and can’t wait for the day where I’m 18 and move out and do my own thing. I had a pretty rough childhood, but who hasn’t right?
I think what gets me down the most around and on my birthday, is my father. I was a daddy’s girl up until I was about 4ish. Only after a few months of my sister being born, my dad decided to leave us all because as he put it, “I don’t know what I want.” I guess him being confused meant it was okay to just walk away and turn his back on his family. I grew up not knowing him and barely hearing from or seeing him. It really fucked with me as a adolescent and it still fucks with me a little. I used to be attached to his hip but after he left, our whole family fell apart. I hated my mother because I felt like it was her fault for not trying hard enough to get him back. I was young and didn’t understand the situation but I of course now comprehend what actually went down and I don’t hate her for it. She was really strong and tried her best to keep us afloat.
I get so bummed because my dad sucks at being a father and he can’t remember my birthday or any holiday to save his life. I’m not close to hardly anyone in my family except my sisters and I’ve accepted that but my dad just gets under my skin and I can’t get rid of it.
I did “re-meet” him about a year ago when I was living in Florida and that was awkward. I had found out from my grandmother (my dad’s mom) that my dad had moved to Florida again and conveniently was only an hour away from me. I thought about it for awhile and then I decided to put the hard feelings behind me and give him a call. I’ve always been very mature and I figured there was no sense going through life with a grudge and so much hate towards someone. I wanted to be the bigger person, tell him how I felt, within reason, and hope that we could move forward in a good direction and make up for lost times. Life is short and I wanted to have my family back, whether it was separated or not, it didn’t matter.
When I gave him that call, it was a very confusing and awkward call but he said he was happy I got in touch with him. He told me I had 2 step-brothers and 2 step-sisters that I needed to meet and they had already known about me and were excited to know their big sister. I love kids, especially siblings, so I was beyond excited to meet them as well.
I went there for the first time and couldn’t have been more nervous. It was so weird being nervous to see family. Aren’t they supposed to be the ones where you feel the most comfortable around? The kids were freaking adorable and we bonded almost right away! My dad was being extremely weird and kept asking what was wrong. I suppose he expected us to bond right away as well, but there was too much negative history for that to happen. The longer I stayed, the more I wanted to punch him in the face. I tried so hard to put a smile on my face but he didn’t want to talk about the past, he just wanted to pretend like nothing ever happened. He really fucked up my mom, grandmother (my mom’s mom, I lived with her until she passed away in ‘04), sister and my life, and made it extremely hard to survive. I wanted answers and most of all, I wanted an apology. I don’t have any children at the moment and I’m not a guy but I don’t see how someone could walk away from their children like that and be able to go on and completely forget that they even exist.
I went back a few times and even took care of the kids for a week because his new girlfriend was out of town and he needed my help. I took time off of work (when I really needed the money) and I never got a thank you. I felt like he was just using me to take care of the kids and as much as I loved them and wanted to get to know them better and be in their lives as much as possible, I had to take myself out of that situation. My dad wasn’t sorry and he could care less how I felt. I was really hoping that we would make some progress but I felt like we took 10 steps backwards instead. He’ll never change and I really feel bad for my brothers and sisters. I don’t want them to have to grow up and have to deal with such a shitty dad but as much as I want to step in and save them, I can’t. It’s not my battle and even though he’s put me in such emotional turmoil, I’m a much stronger person today because of it. When the time comes for me to have children, I will make sure I will always be there for them and no matter what, I will never turn my back on them, I think the only gift he ever gave me was the gift of knowing how great of a mother I want to be when I have children. That’s it though. As far as I’m concerned, he can fall off of the planet. I have no desire to see him again and he will NOT be invited to my wedding or a part of his future grandchildren’s lives.
Birthdays for me aren’t like everyone else’s. I have crazy thoughts going through my head because even though I’m happy with the way my life has turned out so far, I can’t help but think about what COULD have been. I’m kind of on the fence as to if I really want my father to call me on my birthday but since he hasn’t been around for it for 20 years, I’m not expecting my phone to ring. I think I’m okay with that too because my birthday and this past weekend has gone very well without him. I survived this long without him so I think I’ll be alright.

Onto some positive news, if you look to the top left of my blog you will see a little section that says “My Biggest Fans”. That little section is my top ten fans that have left me the most comments since I started this blog. I did that because you all know how much I appreciate the support you guys show. I really wanted to showcase those that take that extra moment to show their love and support towards my blog. That list will update every month with the new top 10 people that comment (it does it automatically) so each month I will be giving a little prize to the one who is on top. I was trying to think of what I was going to give out this month but I want to know what YOU would want if you were the winner?! Do you want a pair of panties? Autographed picture/movie? I don’t know, you tell me! And keep it within reason guys, I’m not wonder woman over here and can’t make just anything happen! So if YOU are on that list right now, and/or want to be in that #1 spot to win a gift from me, give me suggestions on what you’d want and make sure you comment and show your support. Also, I will keep an eye on the comments, one word comments are lame so don’t cheat. I want to show my love to those of you that really care and have been supportive! Love you all and leave me all of your suggestions asap so I can get it together for you! xoxo

I always start off my blogs by saying thank you to you guys and I don’t know if it’s annoying or not but every time I post, I’m in awe by the awesome responses you guys leave. It actully motivates me to blog even more! I really do think I have the coolest fans EVER! I can’t help but get excited to see what you all have to say after I post. I always want to say that I have a counter on my blog to see how many hits it gets every day and the numbers keep getting higher and higher. Thank you for making my blog kick ass, it puts the biggest smile on my face! I can’t wait to see how it does once my site is up!

Speaking of my site, I know I keep saying that it’s coming soon, and it truly is but there were just some bumps in the road to prevent it from launching sooner. I talked to one of my partners today and found out a lot of details and got a lot of questions answered. Within the next few days I will find out a time frame as to when it will be launched (hopefully before the new year) and I will make sure you guys are the first to know! I am so fucking excited, you have no idea!!
I’ve gotten so behind on updating you what I’ve been up to that I need to go back in time a little bit. I’ve taken so many photos for you guys and haven’t posted them so forgive me for having to go back a month or 2. The next few updates will probably be about things that have happened some time ago. I suppose I’ll start as recent as possible. Most of you that really keep up with what I’m up to on the social networking sites, know that I’ve become good buddies with Sophie Dee. I’ve only known her for some short time now but she’s a really down to earth girl and I love hanging out with her. I’m obsessed with her accent and I could seriously just sit for hours and listen to her talk. I love chill girls in the industry so I’m glad that we’ve become friends. The last time I saw her was on Saturday when my boyfriend and I went over and watched UFC at her place. Gianna Michaels was also there so it was nice to watch yummy guys fight with some hot ladies. A picture of all of us is below with the rest.

This past Friday I also shot some content with Sophie for our sites. The scene is already posted on her site www.clubsophiedee.com. It started off as a girl/girl scene and then the pervy camera guy decided to stick his cock in for some attention so we shared and gave him a hot hand job. It was really hot and if you’re a fan of hand jobs, you’ll definitely have to check it out. A few BTS pics are below as well.

I’ve also went to a few parties with Sophie too. I have SO many pictures from those parties that I’m going to have to divide them all up because it would make one hell of an entry! I know you guys wouldn’t mind but a shit ton of pics takes some time. I don’t mind so much but I want to make my entries easy enough to read and view so I promise tons of pics asap. Like I said, I have a lot more to tell you all about so bookmark my blog if you haven’t already. I’m trying to blog every day now, if not twice a day. As far as I know, I don’t have much going on tomorrow other then getting my car smogged so I’ll try to post twice!

Oh!! If you haven’t made not already, please do! My 24th birthday is on Monday. My birthdays usually wind up being lame but I’m still excited anyway. I have a special addy if you would like to send me some birthday love so let me know in a comment if you would like it. I made sure to get a special PO box for fan letters and gifts I started to make a wish list today and I tried to post the link here on my blog but for some reason it isn’t showing. If you know anything about blogs and can help me figure that out, also please let me know. I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong, lol.

Now to finishing Star Trek and Sons of Anarchy! Love you all!! xoxo

PS- @bouges on twitter asked for bush pics and because I’m very fond of my bush, I decided to fill that favor!