Where do I begin? I feel like I’m always talking about my Kink shoots lately. Every time I go, I think, ‘how bad could it possibly be this time?’ and then I’m shown how crazy intense they can be.

Monday Cassandra and I hopped onto a plane and went to Kink together. We were going to be shooting for www.whippedass.com. Kink booked Cassandra and I together because last time I went to shoot for that site was when I was paired up with Jayme Langford and the shoot was a disaster and had gotten canceled. I had told them about Cassandra when I was there before and said that she would be a great replacement and they’d get a great scene out of us. I always enjoy going with her because it’s nice flying there with someone and having someone to talk to and hang out with.

Prior to the whippedass.com shoot, I had no idea what the scenario was going to be until I was in the makeup chair and I found out that we were re-doing the exact scene that had gotten canceled a couple weeks back. I liked the scenario but my agent hadn’t told me that I was definitely going to be doing gg anal so I didn’t prepare for it. Isis Love comes up to me and talks about the shoot and mentions the anal part and I freaked for a minute because I was hoping they weren’t going to make me do it.  If I would have know that we were re-doing the exact scene then I would have prepared for the anal but it was too late at that point. It turned out to not be a big deal and they just switched some things around to0 make it work. Since we were re-doing the scene, that meant that we got to wear the french maid latex again which I was excited about! I actually wound up wearing an outfit that wasn’t the exact outfit that I had wore before but it was latex and I loved it.

The site whippedass.com is a girl/girl site that has a lot of (no surprise) ass whipping and smacking. The first scene we come in to meet Isis because she’s looking to hire a new assistant so Cassandra and I were applying for the job. The catch is that Isis is crazy and wants to make us her little play toys so she has us put on our “uniforms” that are the latex outfits. After we get our outfits on she puts gags in our mouths that have dusters on the end of them and makes us start cleaning her house. While we’re cleaning she’s flogging us, slapping our asses like crazy and just torturing us altogether.

The first scene leads into the second scene where we’re on a couch tied to the railing of the stairs that’s behind us. Our hands are tied to our ankles, and our ankles are tied behind our heads to the stairs. On top of that, my left foot and wrist and Cassandra’s right foot and wrist are all tied together. We’re on our backs and from being tied up, our pussies are wide open and exposed. It took a long time to get all tied together so before we even started, I was losing feeling in my hands and feet. The second scene was really hard core for me because Isis used a cane on us to whip us and it hurts like HELL!! She kept slapping our inner thighs and the bottoms of our feet and hurt even worse because my feet were asleep so her hitting them, brought them back to life and intensified the pain. Isis also put metal nipple clamps on us and it felt like my nipples were going to fall off. My nipples are normally extremely sensitive so I was screaming my lungs out when she put them on. I think she was feeling nice that day because she didn’t keep them on for long luckily. I was seriously ready to tap out because of the clamps. I never want them to be used on me again!

I was so relieved when the second scene was over but that still meant that we had 2 more to go. The third scene was crazier then the second of course. Cassandra was tied to the foot of the bed with her arms tied out like she was on a cross, her head down on the bed and her legs tied with a leg bar. I had my arms and hands tied behind my back with a dildo gag attached to my face. I had to fuck Cassandra from behind with the dildo attached to my face and then make her suck on it while Isis was whipping and flogging our asses over and over. It was hard for me because I had to climb onto the bed at one point but it was SO hard to do with arms tied behind my back. You don’t realize how much you need your arms until they’re tied up and you can barely do anything.

Finally it was the fourth scene. I was now tied to the head of the bed with my arms tied back behind the railing  so that the head of the bed was DIGGING into my back. It killed as soon as I was tied so I just had to put myself into another place. I was sitting on my knees and Isis had Cassandra tied up with her arms and hands behind her back and she forced her to slide under my pussy and eat me out as she flogged us. Isis also used the hitachi on us numerous times and I came like crazy. Cumming as much as I did pretty much makes it worth all the pain that you have to go through.

I’d have to say that the re-do of the shoot was way better then the original would have been. I had a lot of fun but was definitely exhausted by the end of the day. I had to stay the night at the Armory because I was booked for another scene the next day. I was sad that Cassandra wasn’t staying with me because I was super bored after she left. I went into the green room to eat dinner and wound up falling asleep on the couch as I watched Intervention. I didn’t want to pass out there so at 730pm, I went to my room and closed my eyes for the night. I honestly didn’t think I was going to sleep until 9am the next morning but my room was super dark and quiet and my bed was so freaking comfortable that I couldn’t help but sleep for 14 hours.

The next morning, I waited for the makeup artist to get in before hopping in the makeup chair and finding out what my scene for www.sexandsubmission.com was going to entail. I was working with Mark Davis who I’d never worked with before and I got to wear latex again. The scenario was that I was showing up for my breast reduction surgery and Mark Davis was my doctor. He didn’t want me to get a reduction and he was a pervy doctor so he wanted to show me some pleasure pain before doing my surgery. It was kind of corny but it worked since I have huge tits.

The first scene was Mark walking me down the hall to the doctor’s room. He hands me a gown and tells me to put it on for the examination. I lay down and he comes back to ask me some questions and then he has me take the gown off so he can examine my body. After he examines my body, he has me bend over and he ties my hands up with rope, starts flogging me to take away the pain from my back. I question his actions and then he takes control and tells me that he has a few procedures that can help with my back pain.  He also has me suck his cock before we end and go into the second scene.

The second scene I’m tied down to a table that has the stirrups, like when you go to the gynecologist. I was strapped down so I couldn’t move and then a ball gag was placed into my mouth so the “other patients” couldn’t hear me scream. Mark uses breast suction pumps on my tits which was a very crazy feeling, the zapper which KILLED for some reason this time and used the hitachi until I came and while he was fucking me. He fucks me for awhile while he’s slapping me all over and then it ends for the second scene.

The third scene I’m tied up in a ton of rope on a hospital bed in doggy position. Mark basically just fucks me in this scene along with some bj action as well. The whole time he’s fucking me he is slapping my ass over and over in the same place and it freaking killed! I was screaming my ass off and was in tears because it hurt so much. I cry a lot in my kink scenes but it’s because it’s how I deal with pain. I can’t help it, as soon as something hurt, tears just start building up in my eyes.  When I start to cry, Mark always addresses it and makes sure that I want to continue.  I always do so he fucks me some more to end the scene.

The last and final scene was my favorite because I finally got to put on my latex nurse outfit. I was kind of bummed that I didn’t get to wear it longer because I only wore it for about 15min in the last scene. The reason I put the outfit on was because he’s had his fun with me but then he wanted to make me his sex slave and told me that I wasn’t going to get my surgery after all. I start off with this contraption that looked freaking crazy. It’s made out of metal and it went around my head and I had to hold my wrists up because it went around my wrists as well. It was really awkward so I had to blow Mark and get fucked in the annoying contraption. The last scene seemed the shortest because Mark was feeling really ill so we made sure we got through it quickly. Mark came on my face and in my mouth and ordered me to swallow. I normally don’t swallow on film but he ordered me to do it and I didn’t have time to say no.

I think both scenes were hot but they really wore me out. I have bruises all over my body right now and yesterday I had to take a low key day and just stay home and relax and recuperate from it all. I feel like I only shoot for Kink and work on my site lately, which is fine by me. I wonder when the next time they’ll be having me back. I can’t wait

Friday morning I woke up extremely excited and nervous at the same time. I had got a call on Thursday about replacing my roomie, Cassandra and taking her place in a shoot for kink.com. It was bitter sweet because I felt bad that I was taking Cassandra’s place but it was good for me because I have been DYING to work for kink and I finally got the chance! The shoot that I was going to be doing was a gg anal scene. This was going to be my FIRST on screen anal scene. Since it was going to be my debut, I was insanely nervous because I didn’t know what to except. I knew that kink is known for their BDSM but I didn’t know if it was going to be as hardcore as it looked when I looked up scenes from whippedass.com, the site I was going to be shooting for.

Thursday night, Cass and I went to the store and I bought enemas. I had never done an enema so I was nervous about that but thank goodness I had Cass here to help me through it. She told me what to expect so once I did it, it was no big deal. It wasn’t the most fun thing I’ve ever done before but I’d highly recommend it. I felt so much better afterward and a lot skinnier.

Friday morning I had to be up at 5:45am because I needed to be at the Burbank airport at 730am to make my 820am flight. I would have usually been really grumpy to have to be up that early in the morning but because I was so anxious for the day to come, I just tossed and turned all night so waking up wasn’t a big deal.

I made my flight and made it to San Fransisco on time to meet up with my driver from Kink (Kink flies you out to San Fran and back home that day). From getting all of my details the night before, I had expected the other girl in the shoot, Jayme Langford to be meeting up with me when we got picked up to go to Kink but she was no where to be found. When I got in the van I had asked if she was still coming and the driver said that she had missed her flight and would be getting a cab and meeting us at Kink a little later.

We got in some crazy traffic on our way to Kink but an hour later we were pulling up. I was amazed at the building that Kink was in because it’s a HUGE warehouse. I had known this from viewing their site but it seemed so much bigger in person. We pulled into a huge garage which led me to the main door where I had to sign in with security. I was then taken to the Talent Department where I had to fill out paperwork and got to pick out my lunch for the day. They had all kinds of salads and sandwiches laid out that the talent could choose from. I picked out a BLT sandwich but I wasn’t going to be able to enjoy it until after my day since I was doing anal.

After I picked out my lunch, I was taken up a flight of stairs to the Green Room where I got to relax until the make up artist got there. While walking the hall to the green room, I got to see the dorm section where there were tons of bedrooms. The halls seemed endless and there was always something interesting behind each door. Kink sometimes flies out girls and they shoot multiple scenes in back to back days so they let the girls stay there instead of flying them back and forth so that’s why they had so many dorm style rooms.

Inside the Green Room was a couple of couches and a tv. There was also cubbies and lockers where you could put your personal belongings. Even in the one corner there was a fridge that was stocked with all kinds of juices, water and energy drinks. There was even breakfast items such as cereal and bagels available as well as a tray that had all kinds of granola bars and snacks. I was amazed at how professional everything was set up; I felt like I was on a movie set where they had pretty much everything you’d need or want.

I only waited about 10min before the makeup artist got there and had me hop right in to get started. People were coming in and out, there was so much going on but everyone seemed to go out of their way to introduce themselves. I felt so comfortable there already I had been there for less than an hour. Soon enough Isis Love walked in and she was even more pretty in person then I thought she was going to be. She looked a bit tired and barely said 2 words to me at first. I just kept to myself listening to everything going on around me; it was a lot to take in!

While I was getting my makeup done, the wardrobe stylist came in to tell me what I was going to be wearing for my scene. I was super stoked because she told me that Jayme and myself were going to be wearing LATEX and not just latex but french maid looking latex!! I have never worn latex in my life so I was super excited to try it on and see how it felt. She gathered all of my things while I was finishing up and then I got dressed. The latex was cool but it didn’t fit but I think that was the point. The top part was a latex apron but I had major side boob going on. My bottom half was just a latex garter that connected to latex leggings and I even had latex gloves and choker. It was super hot looking and super hot feeling because the latex makes you sweat like crazy!  The latex was actually my second outfit because the first one was a normal jean skirt and tshirt because the scenario was that Jayme and I were being interviewed to be Isis’ maids. She was wealthy and was going to pay us $100,000 a month to clean her house but she had “other” duties for us to take care of other then just cleaning, including wearing a special “uniform”. I was going to be the one that got hired because at the end, I was the one getting fucked in the ass.

Once I had my first outfit on, Maitresse Madeline said she’d show me around the set we would be working on and all of the fun things that were going to be used on me. She was directing and was really excited about our scene that day. We went down what seemed like a million sets of stairs and finally got to our set. It was just a normal set that looked like the inside of a house. I was going to be the one that was obedient and Jayme was supposed to be the rebel that didn’t want to do anything Isis said. There was going to be 4 scenes with each being 20min long. We had to be done before 6pm so I could leave at 6 to make it to the airport with enough time to make my 8pm flight.

When I had first left to go down to take a look at the set Jayme had just shown up. She looked a bit out of sorts and didn’t have much to say. My first thoughts on her was that she was a lot more thinner then I had anticipated. I had looked her up before my scene because I had never heard of her before. From the pictures that I had seen, she looked a lot different in person which is common in the porn business. She had pink streaks in her hair, pink braces and I felt like if I would hug her, I’d probably break her. She didn’t say much when she walked in either and that’s when I went downstairs.

The things Madeline showed me that were going to be used on me were INSANE. I’ve only been tied up once which is the closest to BDSM as I’ve gotten which was for Big Tit Slaves. For the first scene, I was going to have a butt plug in my butt for most of the scene that had a feather duster on the other end. The whole point was that it would be used to warm up my butt for the 4th scene, where Isis was going to fuck my ass with a strap on. I was also going to have the zapper used on me which is just a bolt of electricity that pretty much just shocks you. It makes a loud sound but it doesn’t even hurt, it just scares you more then anything. I was also going to have clamps on my nipples and and pussy lips with weights added to them as well. I was even going to get flogged for the first time which is kinda like whipping but not as hard. Everything that they asked me if I’d be okay doing, I was totally down to try out. I’m not going to lie and say that it wasn’t overwhelming or a bit scary but I’m always down to try out new things. Madeline even asked me if I was down to do a DP with Isis fucking me in the ass and Jayme fucking my pussy and I said I had never done it before but I’d try and see how it went. I love pushing my limits!

After Madeline finished going over everything with me, Isis and Jayme still weren’t down to the set yet. We waited a little while and then Isis came done but Jayme still wasn’t ready. We waited for awhile longer and finally Jayme showed up. Madeline quickly went over what she had told and asked me, with Jayme, but she wasn’t as willing to give things a try. It seemed like she didn’t want to do anything which became a bit of a problem since the shoot was planned out around these things. It turned out that everything was going to be done to me instead so I was going to get the “worst” of it but like I said, I was ready to take it all.

We were running extremely behind so we jumped right into the scene but for a million different reasons including wardrobe malfunctions and many other things, we kept having to stop and kept falling more and more behind. In my opinion, Jayme didn’t seem into it and at 330pm we had JUST finished our first scene with 3 more to go. It felt almost impossible to get it all done. My ass was killing me after the scene because of us having to stop so many times, I had the butt plug in my ass for an hour and a half! I was annoyed and just wanted to get through the scene. I was giving it my all and somewhere in between all of the chaos, the scene stopped being fun.

We took a break after the first scene and everyone seemed to disappear. I was just sitting around waiting for awhile when the Talent Director pulled me aside. He started off saying that he wanted me to know that they loved me and was glad they had me come out but they were going to call the shoot because of everything falling apart. They were short on time and they felt that the scene wasn’t the quality they were looking for. They take pride in always having good quality and they didn’t want to continue and half-ass their way through everything to just finish the shoot. They also were looking for the other person to be into and open to everything like I was. When someone is into the scene 100% and the other person isn’t, it just doesn’t work. I totally understood everything they were saying and was confident that I did everything I could to keep up on my end. They told me over and over that it wasn’t my fault and they really want to have me back asap.

They pulled Jayme aside to tell her the deal but she didn’t take it as well. She didn’t understand why they were canceling the shoot and it turned into some drama. At the end of each kink shoot, they do an interview with all of the girls together to confirm that everything that went down in the shoot was consensual but Jayme refused to do it. It was just one thing after another and I was really bummed that the day had to end that way. I was so excited to shoot for kink and if the shoot would have went the way it should have, it would have been a  REALLY hot scene. They were going to use the one scene that we shot as a bonus scene but because Jayme didn’t do the post interview, they can’t use it so basically, that whole day was wasted. It sucks but now kink knows who I am, the love me and they’re having me back already on Thursday for their site publicdisgrace.com so I’m really excited for that! I also suggested that if they work out having me back for whippedass.com with Isis, that they should use Cassandra and I, since I was her replacement and we both look alike, like the same things and work well together, and they liked the idea so hopefully they can make it happen.

I’m sure the day could have been worse but shit happens. I’m just super happy that I got the chance to meet everyone over at kink and that I get to shoot for them again so soon. Now I just hope that this upcoming shoot goes a lot better then this past one